Well those were final moments of My graduation [B.TECH]..i am busy in shaping my projects and luking for some help ..so i contact a frd in IIT Roorkee to know whether some on is working on same project .To my expectation ..he sends me a name ...but that is gal[she is working on similar project] ..i am bit apprehensive coz i never believed a gal can do some fruitful academic job.Well that frd recommended me hardly to conceal his name ..i agreed ..but that made my life hard coz when i
wrote her a mail [a mixture of lie and truth to impress her] she asked how i got her id ...i was bit blank at the moment ..but i replied with little confidence ..a common reply " from some search ..i cannt remember exactly"..as i expected she was
nt that fool to believe me at that moment.Better i prefered to speak truth but i was late ...but we were constantly in touch ...although she never responded everytime ...but more i wrote and got response ..i was much attracted towards her [i dont know what made me to get some feeling of LUV for her]..i am laughing bt to be honest i was ready to do anything for her ..although i was busy like hell in various things..but she appeared me most important always from that day when i started writting like that.It was
very painful whenever i hdnt got her responses.Now my exams are over and project ..but i stayed there [in my college] for some time to get final words from her...but finally without getting much from her side ..cruel day arrived ,finally b4 packing i wrote her final mail ..saying "i am leaving for home " i left my contact number and told her if she ever suffering she must contact me.Well left for home ...at home like a fool everyday i was waiting for her call [i was nt having her number]...although i was knowing well that thr is no reason that she should call me .Anyway my rest days came to end ..and as i hv to join job so i came to B'lore.I didnt have idea where she gone ..to her home Nepal ..or some where for job.I had very few hopes that we two ever communicate .
But to my surprise very next day i came to B'lore and logged to my messanger she was online ..she explained me that she is back to Nepal ..i can read disappointment of leaving India in her expressions ..something was affectionate for me in words..those words made me to think that she really likes me in some way ....and was desperate enuf to talk me.
Well , i hv to come Hyderabad.No frd in Hyd for me ..very alone so more busy abt thinking her ...even in office [laughing but thats true]...sometime even in between discussion she came in my mind and luved me for sometime and then left me alone.Most of the time in Noon she came online ..i think that she came online to chat with me..coz she replied me back without a single second delay.But she never told me that she liked me.I always waited for noon ..whenever she came online i left all work
..whatever it was ..whoever is luking me to do chat..even sometime my project manager came to me to warn me but nothing mattered she is above all.
Well ...finally i decided to tell her that I LUV Her.Many time i stored my all courage and tried to tell her ..abt my feelings.I said her "I want to tell u something" she told to do it ...i guess she was laughing at her place .Finally i expressed me to her hardly.To my surprise her reply was not gray and not bright.Well she was in dilema...I thought that she is comitted to someone and is confused.
Well we started chatting ...many times she told me "I like u very much but as a frd only nothing in any other sense" that brought anger to me and felt like being in hell.Oneday she told me that she is hving boyfrd in Kathmandu and she luvs her. i was biggest ever disappointed to know that ..water coming out from my eyes..with acute pain ..my heart was coming out .
I decided to put an end to all my talk with her ..but more i thought to do this more i was frightened and restless.Finally i tried to continue to chat her with as frd only.But my feelings never changed and i told her abt that too.Yea i thought that i am selfish to have such feelings for her ..but i couldnt help me out .i continued like that only.
Well one day ...much to my surprise she put a marriage proposal[believe me she was very serious that day] ...i was surprised and without any delay i said my "yes".Oh god i cannt be much more happy than that.I called back to home and told eveyone
that i am going to marry her.I was so happy for two days ..i never been ever.But something changed her again ...[may be her
Boy frd..he must have put some foolish sentiments before her]..breaking me completly she said that she
was only joking and she was never serious to marry me ...same pain came again ..this time i was out of control and cursed her ..coz i was hopeless this time i thought "she is fun-loving" and nt serious .
But next day she came with truth and told me thats she also has feelings for me with same time to her Boy frd too.Yes ,she was in dilema and is still in .And i am second priority for her .Well i am nt disappointed ...well sure that she will come with me only.
She is mine best frd and best luv ...i like to discuss all matters with her ..and she replies calmly like well-experienced lady ..she is princess ..sometime she asks me something like a innocent child ..first i laugh then reply her.
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